So finally, I was there.. I was in Busan for JYJ concert.. after so many weeks of doubt, frustration, anger, despair and tears, I could get those so precious tickets for the most wonderful event of 2011.. Thank you so much Monica and Reina for getting me those tickets.. without you, I would have never attended the first tour directed by Kim Jaejoong, and it would have been one of my biggest regret as a fan.. something I wouldnt have forgiven myself.. This concert, I knew I couldnt miss it.. so I’ll never thank you enough for giving me this wonderful opportunity..
Thank you also Jenny and Kyung Yeon for accompanying me during a part of this journey, this was so amazing to meet you and experience those great moment together… you girls are the best!!
Anyway, so my journey in Busan started pretty funnyly indeed.. when I got in the Limousine bus to go from Gimhae airport to the hotel, my sister thought it was a great idea to call me at this moment.. so yeah, suddenly I heard the ringtone “I want you in my plans.. I want you in my plans babyyyy”.. okie great.. now the whole bus know the reason why I am in Busan.. lolz.. and when I finally arrived in Seomyeon area, I walked the wrong way looking for my hotel, and I lost myself and my luggages in the backalleys, thanksfully a taxi driver stopped for me.. then I realized I was really not far away.. I paid only 2600 wons.. lolz.. when I finally arrived, I was too exhausted to do anything else.. so I stayed there in my room and relaxed..
The second day, Jenny and me finally met.. we found each other easily at Seomyeon station thanks to the phone hehe.. and first surprise, when we were about to take the subway to Haeundae beach, we saw Jaejoong subway ads.. such a proud feeling..
Our director.. our pride
then as we planned before, we went to visit Haeundae beach and the aquarium.. this so beautiful aquarium where Jaejoong took pictures with his friends (and definitely a must see.. even though I visited the aquarium in Valencia (Spain) before, I never saw so many varieties of fishes).. also we were lucky because not a long time ago, there was this famous festival where artists build sand castles and any kind of sand sculptures..
Saturday 11th june~ Goods and Concert
I woke up early this morning.. too much excitement and impatience in my heart.. no matter how many times I’ll see JYJ in concert, I think I’ll always get this feeling, as if it was my very first time, all over again.. no matter how many times, I think the withdrawal syndrom and the emptiness I feel when everything is over will never stop.. I’ll never get enough of them.. never.. they’re just too amazing.. do they even know what they do to me.. to many of us..
Anyway, so after eating my breakfast, I walked happily to the station, where I was supposed to meet Kyung Yeon, and later Jenny.. having absolutely no clue where was this station, I lost myself in Busanjin-gu.. lolz.. when I finally found it, I got to know (via Monica on twitter) that sadly our Xiahpwa was sick in the morning and we could meet only later.. so I headed alone to Sajik stadium for the goods.. clumsy me stopped at Sajik station (the name fit the name of the stadium.. lolz).. but when I exited there, there was no souls around.. lolz.. Besides, no stadium in sight.. so yeah, I remembered Seoul, Sports Complex station.. it was the same name, so I went back to Sports Complex station and found some fans to follow and Asiad Stadium in sight (looking at it, I couldnt help but thinking how nice the concert would have been inside.. but somehow, I loved how close we were from the boys during the concert, due to the not so big venue)..
To reach the stadium from the station, you have to walk quite a bit, and that day was very very hot, the sun was burning (I even caught a sunburn).. so I was worried we”ll have to wait for too long.. but when I arrived, the line was still ok.. its just the goods hadnt started selling then.. lolz.. so I waited in line with others.. cursing myself for not bringing my umbrella.. yeah, in my country, you use an umbrella only for the rain.. it was not raining when I left my hotel, so I decided to not bring it with me.. huge mistake!!! no umbrella, no cap, nothing, I was in a very uncomfortable situation and thanksfully, besides me there was a very sweet korean fan, who shared half of her umbrella with me, protecting me from the sun.. Thank you so much, adorable fan.. this JYJ family is really wonderful and caring.. somehow, she reminded me a lot of this fan in Seoul, who lent a blanket to my sister and me.. maybe she was the same person indeed.. anyway, so we waited for the goods, surrounded by fans speaking korean, japanese, chinese.. and while waiting, Jenny and later Kyung Yeon joined me, so we could grab our goods..
Then we left and at the subway station, you could see many JYJ ads on the wall.. Sports Complex station was all about JYJ.. so beautiful.
JYJ ads in Sports Complex Station
Anyway, Kyung Yeon led us everywhere we asked for, buying Tio for us, then to NII store, and eating korean food.. then she checked if our lightsticks were worked fine.. and bad luck, Jenny’s lightstick wasnt working.. so we headed back to the venue to change it.. haha.. Kyung Yeon took care of everything then (she is such a lively and amazing girl.. it was something to witness her talking on the phone with Monica.. she is so funny.. but also sweet and caring), while Jenny and me walked around, taking pictures of the venue, the banners, the so amazing Jaejoong bus, and the fans also..
Kim Jaejoong, Our Director, Our Pride
JYJ World Tour banner in Busan
The diversity of this fandom never fails to amaze me.. any age (children to pretty older women), any gender (yeah, we saw few fanboys around), any nationality or race.. I believe no other group than JYJ has such a “colored” fandom.. and to me, it proves their talent as artists.. they’re one of a kind.. I wish Korea would understand this and protect them, because they’re truly the best ambassadors overseas… anyway, later we sat on the floor waiting, and we could listen the boys rehearsing inside already.. Get Out.. Empty.. raising our excitement to the highest.. after a while, we could see waiting lines forming, so we followed one too.. and God, such a loooong waiting line.. its hard to believe we were “only” 10,000 fans.. it looked like so much more.. at first, we thought we were not so far away from the door, but indeed, the waiting line was leading behind the stadium to go back to this same door, moving just like a snake!!!!!! we were so tired already, and the concert didnt even start.. haha.. Kyung Yeon was worried to fall asleep in front of Junsu.. lolz.. as if it could happen!!
Anyway, once inside the venue, we realized our seats were absolutely awesome.. 2nd floor pretty much in front of the smaller stage (at the right), first row somehow.. this was the best!! *thank you Moni!!*.. then on our seats we could find the yellow lightstick with explanations for use written in korean and english.. it was very very well organized..
And while waiting for the beginning of the show, I looked around, witnessing the venue filling up little by little and admiring the wonderful stage setting.. work of a genius.. as the venue was filling up, the red lights glowing (some green lights also for my JaeJae), the excitement was growing more and more.. we could hear Boy’s letter and In Heaven music playing in background..
then they played the flashmob on the screen, so I started rehearsing for it (rehearsal was very much needed, as I never danced it again after the concerts in Seoul last november lolz).. fans around me were doing the same haha.. anyway, then they turned off the lights, and The Beginning music started playing with the pictures introduction on the screen.. the green lasers flashing all around the venue, raising up even more (if possible) our excitement.. fans kept screaming when their bias was appearing on the screen lolz.. then suddenly, the boys were thrown from under the stage onto the stage.. and oh wonderful surprise, the one appearing in front of my eyes was Jaejoong.. how lucky and I didnt even prepare my camera then.. haha.. but my eyes were so focused on him, that now I am unable to tell you where were Junsu and Yoochun.. even though I believe Yoochun was on the main stage, and Junsu on the small stage at the left..
When they started singing and dancing, we didnt know if we should get up and dance or stay on our seats to dance.. after hesitating too, Kyung Yeon said to me we cant stand up (which is good, respecting fans behind us..).. And as always, fans screamed the “Let it go” as loud as possible.. hoping certain persons would hear us and would finally really let them go!!! haha.. Empty is really the perfect song to start the concert, warming up our heart, mind and soul.. setting the perfect atmosphere for the rest of the show.. amazing show.. I’m trying to remember every details now as I am writting my fanaccount, but it’s not easy.. when you’re there, attending the concert, time flies just like in a dream, you’re so high and mesmerized by every details that when they leave the stage, you come back on earth, into the harsh reality.. you woke up, the dream ended.. but the memories of those wonderful moments will remain forever in my heart.. oh JYJ, it’s what you do to me.. what you do to me~ ..
Short Fancam of JYJ singing Nine
Anyway, that night , we had the chance to have “Be my girl” performed on the small stage in front of us.. not really the small stage, but the path leading to it, and they were facing the right side of the crowd.. and so, right in front of our eyes, we could see perfectly Junsu’s hips moves (profile side *yum yum*).. God, I am Jae biased, but I must say without any guilt, that Junsu’s hips moves during “Be my girl” is a sight for the eyes.. so incredibly sexy.. our Xiahpwa besides me was sure very pleased.. lolz.. Also, Junsu and Yoochun’s solo were performed in this same stage.. so when “I can soar” started playing, Kyung Yeon screamed “Junsuuuu” just when the venue became suddenly silent.. lolz.. I am sure Junsu could feel the love.. If it had been during the ment, I am sure the boys would have teased hehe.. Junsu’s solo is really beautiful and the choregraphy looks enchanting with the dancer dancing like a butterfly around him.. while the choregraphy for Yoochun and Jaejoong’s solo are made to tease the fangirls!!! very hot, sexy and bold.. and I think it would be interesting to compare Jaejoong’s first solo performance in Bangkok, with this performance in Busan.. performance after performance, he became more daring, touchy-feely and natural with the female dancers.. maybe because of the good response from his fans who somehow wished to see him doing sexy things like Yoochun.. lolz yeah, Jaejoong’s fans are indeed strange.. we want to see him play with the girls.. Anyway, talking about his solo, it was not performed on the stage in front of us.. I knew it wouldnt after we had Junsu and Yoochun’s solo there.. but still, as Jae biased, I hoped it would be, so I was a bit sad *greedy much lolz*.. nonetheless, I couldnt take my eyes off of him.. Jae’s voice singing this song is mesmerizing.. who wouldnt dream to have him saying those words to us.. ah this is love.. indeed, their solo really have a blues atmosphere (not sure its the right word, I dont know how to explain.. you know, just like the atmosphere of those lonely nights.. hmm..) and the choregraphies and the overall stage atmosphere really fits those moments..
Yoochun performing I Love You
Jaejoong performing Still In Love on sunday 12th
Also, I must say how much I love “Nameless song part 1″ sang live.. rap may not be my favorite style of music, but the emotion and anger Yoochun put into his rap gives you goosebumps.. I can still remember perfectly Yoochun’s expressions while rapping.. so much angst.. then Jaejoong and Junsu’s heavenly voices blending so perfectly, are soothing, like a lullaby.. calming your broken heart on the verge of tears.. and you listen silently, overwhelmed with emotions, you just cant say a word.. this song is really meant to be sung live, sharing all their emotions with the fans who knows more than anyone else what they have been through.. those fans who suffered together with them.. their family.. the JYJ family..
JYJ interacting with the fans~
Anyway, later they performed one of the fans favorite “Chajatta”.. Junsu and Jaejoong started singing their part.. and then they called Yoochun.. as if he was lost somewhere, playing around haha.. it was so cute.. and as always, they really dont need to sing the “Saranghae, nul saranghae” part, because the fans sing it so loud to tell the boys how much we love them.. this saranghae truly comes from the deepest of our heart.. and God knows we love them our boys and I am proud to say that the “Fallen Leaves” yellow ocean project was a great success.. when we started hearing the first notes of the song, we turned off the red lights and prepared our yellow lightsticks (both days, I had hard time to light it.. mostly because I was worried to ruin it when bumping it hard.. lolz) and suddenly the whole venue was colored in yellow..
I dont know if the boys expected something like this, but I have no doubt they were deeply moved while performing this song.. they looked so happy after the song, talking and joking around (how I wish I understood then).. but when Junsu said “one, two, three” in korean, Kyung Yeon took my yellow lightstick to hide it inside the bag) and then we turned back on our red lightsticks.. lolz.. ah those boys powers are supernatural.. their wishes are our command.. lolz.. and so then, they started singing “Boy’s letter” surrounded by the red ocean.. ah this song is such a beautiful love letter to the fans.. feeling how loved we are, it’s impossible to not love those boys to death.. anyway, later “Be my girl” remix started playing, it was our (fans) moment to perform and better perform well to show the boys how hard we worked for them too!!.. so we got up (luckily there was no seats before us, so Kyung Yeon and me had some space to dance the flashmob.. its such a high moment, so exciting when the whole venue dance together with the boys, making one with them.. and the wave was absolutely amazing, just like during a WC soccer game.. then I thought of how proud and happy our boys must be at this moment.. and the second day, the wave was even more awesome.. we kept playing around.. lolz.. after the song, the boys wanted us to continue the wave as we stopped after one turn only during the song.. they didnt get enough so we started it again.. but then, when they asked us to stop, we didnt.. we kept waving and waving.. so they laughed and Jaejoong sat on the floor, laughing too much because we didnt want to stop.. and they had to turn off the lights for us to stop doing the wave.. lolz.. then they left the stage, and we started chanting “JYJ, JYJ, JYJ” and we kept chanting those 3 magical letters, without fail, until they came back onstage for the encore.. until Jae appeared on the stage right in front of me to sing Get Out.. how I love my seat that first night.. how I love this song.. now I think about it, they changed the opening choregraphy of it, as they were on the 3 different stages to start the song (well, I think.. I cant remember well.. hmm).. and my eyes were glued on Jaejoong, until he joined the main stage, Yoochun and Junsu.. ah it always amazed me so much how fans are screaming happily when Yoochun shout “fuck you”.. and those two days, I was one of those screaming happily too.. haha..
Very short fancam of Jaejoong performing Get Out
Then it was empty remix, how hot it is when our Junsu does the handstand.. that boy, he is talented in everything.. he can do absolutely everything.. to me he was always the best dancer and still is.. wow.. we’re all very high when the first notes of In Heaven starts playing.. but then Sajik gymnasium listens quietly, mesmerized by those boys voices, who literally send you to Heaven.. singing the song with everything they got.. all their feelings, emotions and sorrow.. there is no words strong enough to describe the emotions then.. this song is beautiful, and when JYJ perform it live, it becomes a masterpiece.. the harmony of their voices blending so perfectly.. you dont want it to end, you dont want to let them go and the “kajima” takes all its meaning.. but already they are saying goodbye, ready to leave the stage.. and we were left speechless, so Yoochun left the stage chanting “JYJ JYJ”.. and we followed him, and started chanting “JYJ JYJ”.. but on sunday, he didnt need to tell us anything, when they thanked the fans, ready to leave, fans already started chanting “JYJ JYJ”.. the second day, I was sitting in the angle where they left the stage, so I could see them until they disappeared backstage.. how I wish they could have stayed longer.. how I wish the concert could just last forever..
JYJ kamsahamnida… JYJ kajima~
Then we had to leave.. so after we joined Jenny, we went to the subway station.. it was such a crazy and scary experience.. We were so many waiting for the train to come, and when it was finally there, fans were pushing to fit in it.. there was this young man, who wanted to stop at the station, and he couldnt even leave because he kept being pushed back inside.. some fans were screaming, scared to fall.. once inside, I didnt know anymore where were Kyung Yeon and Jenny, but I could listen Kyung Yeon calling my name.. lolz.. also an ahjussi talked to me in the subway.. I was so ashamed, I couldnt speak one word of korean, but he made the effort to speak to me in english!! and he was probably more than 60 years old.. so sweet of him..
Sunday 12th june~ Second day of the concert
That day, I arrived at the venue a bit before the lunch time.. I wanted to spend the whole day at the venue and enjoy the atmosphere.. besides, I had to get my ticket at 1pm.. as it was the right time, I walked to the tickets booth, and there when I showed the paper, they asked me for my ID *shock*.. so I explained that my friend bought the ticket for me, and they asked me to call my friend.. thanksfully, Reina gave me her phone number before in case there was some problems to get the tickets, so I let the woman calling her.. lolz.. what a fear though.. anyway, after this, I went to get my Herose goods at Jaejoong bus (I was supposed to get them the day before, but I didnt dare to get into the bus.. I was not sure if it was allowed.. lolz).. anyway, so this time, I got inside the bus where two very nice girls were waiting.. then I explained I was there to get the goods I ordered online and so they gave them to me hehe..
Jaejoong’s goods from Herose, that I ordered online few weeks ago~
When I left the bus, I kept meeting people with those cute fans.. Jaejoong’s, Junsu’s or Yoochun’s.. and I couldnt find this anywhere.. I so wanted one.. Jaejoong’s one.. where it was written “Go together Jaejoong”.. so I thought we could get them in Jaejoong’s bus.. so I went back there.. but at this moment, there was two security guards, so I tried to explain them I wanted to talk to the girls inside the bus.. I even showed them the bag with my goods, asking if the girls were still inside.. and I think they thought I was looking for Jaejoong inside the bus.. they kept telling me he was not there.. I would never dream they would let me in the bus if Jaejoong was inside, even if I asked nicely.. lolz.. ah I feel so stupid when I cant speak a word of korean and even my english is not so understandable.. but anyway, then I asked around to know where they could get this nice Jaejoong’s fan.. but time for me to understand, get in the line for it, there was no fans left anymore.. I was so upset and angry at myself to not have asked earlier.. oh well.. then I sat for a little bit, immersing myself in the before concert atmosphere.. at times, you could listen fans screaming, and so other fans were running, thinking the boys were around.. lolz.. Also, I could see the red balloons distributed by all fans.. and listen those balloons that kept bursting.. but in the end, there was no “all fan” project inside the venue.. I must say I feel Korean fans moved on, more than anywhere else.. just like JYJ.. they’re already all for JYJ and JYJ only.. they want to protect the boys and do everything to make them happy..
Anyway, later I joined the line.. so this time, I didn’t have to wait and walk for too long before entering the venue and I could find my seat pretty easily hehe.. but to be honest, I liked my saturday seat better than this one.. this time, I was pretty much behind the big stage, in the angle with the pole hiding a bit my view.. but it was ok.. as I said before, to me the most important was to be there and attend the concert, no matter the seats.. anywhere, as long as I could be there.. Sitting besides me, there was a very sweet korean noona fan.. we discussed a bit, I discovered she was a Chunsa and I proudly said I was Jaejoong’s.. lolz.. she then explained me about Fallen Leaves project, saying she was there yesterday already (sitting in the same area as me too.. lolz).. and she was in Seoul last november for the concert too.. wow.. it’s so nice to meet this JYJ family.. so many sweet and adorable fans.. also she explained me a bit of what happened the night before.. I understand some things might be upsetting, but we fans should know better than anyone else that due to some circumstances, the boys can’t perform in the venues they deserve.. invisible dirty hands make things difficult for them.. so lets be understanding and happy with what we get.. because what we get is truly wonderful.. it comes from deep inside their heart.. and Jaejoong’s tweet broke my heart…
Jaejoong: Ah… really… our fans, I am just too thankful for… Before, I said that I would perform if there is even one person left… But now I think that I will suffer terribly if the family that I love were to disappear from me… I think I shall work very very hard…
Translation Credit: JYJ3
Anyway, during this second day of concert, they changed few things indeed.. and many songs were performed on the big stage (the one in front of me).. I couldn’t believe my luck, but Jae’s solo was performed on this stage that night.. lolz.. this night was once again like a dream.. such a wonderful dream that you beg for not waking up from it.. you want it to last forever.. but this is impossible.. sadly, I cant understand korean and this is such a big regret.. I was there witnessing their laughter and interaction with korean fans.. yet I couldnt understand and I was thinking “If I start learning korean now, will I be able to understand them one year later?”.. will dedication and love help me? lolz.. during one of the ment, a fan sitting not so far away from me screamed something and she got Jaejoong replying to her.. lolz.. so then many other fans were trying to get his attention too.. lolz.. and the wave after “Be my girl” fanmob was such an amazing moment where we truly played with them and they loved this as much as we did.. If you compare to Thanksgiving live in Tokyo Dome last year (exactly one year ago), those boys are now genuinely happy.. then it was their very first concert as JYJ, they were probably very concerned about the fans react.. their future was so uncertain.. but now.. now they moved on together with their faithful fans, they know what they want and where they’re going.. they’re now confident as JYJ.. and yeah, in the end, it’s JYJ.
Jaejoong~ah.. Kim Director.. the direction of this concert was like no other.. the stage design, choregraphies, light effects, stage costumes, songs diaporama, this is the work of a genius.. a person who worked very hard on every little details.. a wonderful man who created the perfect stage for his fans and his members.. I am so proud to be your fan Jaejoong~ah.. I know my heart made the right choice, you’re truly one of a kind.. you’re the best, you’re forever my number one..
This concert was so special for so many reasons.. this concert belongs to JYJ.. its theirs from A to Z.. their very own songs, their direction, their creativity, their talent.. their sweat, tears and blood.. this magical concert is fully theirs.. So proud of my boys.. I am so loving you.. when and where will we meet again?! will you come to Europe? if not, I’ll come to you again.. if JYJ concert was held on the moon, I guess I’ll go there too.. once you tasted a bit of JYJ heaven, you cant live without it.. just like a sweet drug, it becomes addictive.. we’ll meet again, I’ll make sure of this.. Jaejoong, Junsu, Yoochun, see you soon.. saranghae~
On monday, I went to the venue again.. and then the withdrawal syndrom hit me hard.. the venue was so empty.. suddenly my world and Busan were so empty.. “Un seul être vous manque et tout est dépeuplé”
Sajik Gymnasium venue the day after the concert.. so empty..
Some other moments of my Busan trip~
During my journey in Busan, I couldnt miss doing some JYJ shopping.. one thing I wanted absolutely was the new Nature Republic photobook.. so as soon as I could find a store, I asked them if they had this photobook, then I got my shopping basket and bought NR products.. the store was full packed, it was almost impossible to move around inside it.. lolz.. and in the end, it turned out they didnt have the new NR photobook (maybe they didnt have it anymore, I couldnt say).. I didn’t understand, because she first talked to me in japanese (people in Busan speak very well japanese, and a bit less english).. so I got the 2010 photobook, with the cute cardboards and 2 posters of each members.. I need to find a way to get the new photobook!!.. lolz.. when I was about to leave the store, they asked me if I came for JYJ concert.. lolz..
Nature Republic, NII, TiO.. those boys, they’ll be the end of me..
Also, the day before my departure, I went back to NII store, which is in the commercial center in front of the concert venue.. there I bought two nice shirts for my sister (missed so much my sister who couldnt come with me this time..).. then I asked for Jaejoong poster, but she didnt have it anymore, japanese fans probably grabbed all the stock before me.. lolz.. only Junsu poster was left (Junsu is the king in his homeland.. so fans already got his poster long time ago.. while Jaejoong is the king for japanese fans hehe).. but my boys are my boys, if no Jaejoong poster, give me Junsu’s one after all.. and indeed, not only she gave me JYJ’s NII agenda, Junsu poster, but she also gave me Jaejoong poster that was sticked in the store.. it was so sweet of her.. and when she asked me if I was a fan and went to the concert, I proudly said I came for it..
And I believe Busan was totally under JYJ spell.. when I was doing some souvenirs shopping in the shopping mall underground in Seomyeon, I entered a CD store and “I can soar” was playing.. so I listened, singing along hehe.. and indeed, I realized they were playing “The Beginning” album, so I stayed there until I listened all the songs!!.. haha.. later while I was eating something at Caffé Bene, they played Empty.. so so nice.. another small detail, as if everything reminds me of my boys.. but while I was walking in the streets, I suddenly heard “For you” playing.. but it was not sung by Jaejoong though..
Some other anecdotes.. when leaving Busan, taxi driver asked me where I was from and why I came to Busan.. so I proudly said I came here for JYJ concert.. lolz.. also when I was buying souvenirs at the airport, I carried my Jaejoong goods backpack, and through it we could see Junsu (pic from NR bag).. and the woman there was like “oh Xiah Junsu!!”.. so I was wondering “Xiah Junsu? where? where?” before I realized she was looking at my bag haha.. so then we started talking a bit about the boys, I said I came for their concert, and she said they’re very good singers and her favorite is Xiah.. hehe.. overall, before leaving, I made sure everyone knew I came to Busan for JYJ concert!!